In the beginning...

Let's start off with the basics. I'm pregnant. When did I first suspect this? To be honest, from the moment it happened. However, when I really became paranoid, was one night at work. I was sitting at the computer, doing the nightly deposit, and suddenly felt like I was going to throw up. Out of no where. I freaked out! So out of sheer paranoia, I went to the grocery store and bought a test. I had bought one about a year ago, again because of the paranoia, and thought it was just my brain playing tricks on me again, and that it would come up negative. Again.

It came up postive almost instantly. I was pretty upset with myself. This was not the plan! I was really upset for a couple days, but figured that would get me nowhere. I went to a clinic a few days later and took another test, and sure enough, I was pregnant. About 5 weeks. So I decided I had nothing to do but make the best of my situation. I've always wanted to be a mom. Since I was 13, I've wanted nothing else. But it just came at an unexpected time.

The first 3 months were pretty much torture. I've never dealt with feeling that sick in my life, ever! It was especially hard because I was alone a lot, and had trouble with smelling different food, and cooking, so that made things worse since I was not eating. I lost almost 10 pounds.

So.. that's basically it. This blog is to show the journey along the way. Not only are we going to have a baby, but we are starting new things in life. Josh is in the military, and will be starting an exciting program in school when he gets back. And I will be sharing my stories as a new mom.

Until then, I'm just taking baby steps, one day at a time!